Monday, 17 December 2012

North Town

North Town

My stress and anxiety continues.
It’s living in this crap dying town,
that I’m sure of.
I’d rather be in West Berlin writing poetry,
engaged to a Fraulein.
Soaking up European history.
Instead I’m here: Oldham.
Thorn in the side of the North.
You want a cool place,
go to Manny.
Nowhere is like Manchester.
Catch a gig or shag a bird,
the choice is yours.
All you can do in my town is drink.
One guy drank eight cans for a decade.
Where is he now?
Dead.
I’ll fill his place and fuck his bird.
Reserve the adjacent plot for me!

Friday, 14 December 2012

Again and Again

Again and Again

It's happened again.
What you ask?
Oh you don't wanna know, it aint good.
A slaughter of innocents who were INNOCENT.
What was their crime other than learning at school?
Doing what kids do being looked after by their teachers.

You did COLD BLOODED MURDER.

Some things are fucking WRONG.
You did that.
Fully aware of your evil actions, you KILLED.

We ask WHY?

There's no going back, not EVER.
It's not a fucking video game you butcherous beast.
Gaining entry because you were known.
Then you ACTED.
Not once but dozens of times.
Many dead in your carnage.
No need to say that figure, we all KNOW it.
Just like we know how EVIL guns are.

When will this END?

Even if it takes a change in the American Constitution, new laws and punishments.
Today many families in Newtown are in mourning.

Their precious young children MURDERED.





Thursday, 13 December 2012

RANTINGS OF A DAMAGED MIND poems... a new poem book by nick and mel out in 2013

RANTINGS OF A DAMAGED MIND poems... a new poem book by nick and mel out in 2013

 

Norwegian Hills

Back in 2004 two men met. A unique meeting then, in that year. Yet the event that led up to that meeting, the actual cause, was something else. Do I call it majestic? No.
YOU decide what to call it.
A burning Halifax bomber fell in flames between two hills. Two or three engines on fire. What happened to the other six men? Raped by Nazi gunfire. So many lost, dead.
I wish I could see the scene the Norwegian man saw. Or not. Did he pull the sole English survivor out of the wreckage?
NORWAY MY HOME.
So much war. Not Vikings or myth but real. Burning RAF bomber fell between two hills. Where are the men? Only one was there in 2004, with his saviour. Does he miss his mates? Where are his pals? Still in the charred bomber?

Like a Knife

Hippy lady I saw you perched upon the window ledge in the pub. You looked really something. What did you think of me? Of my tattoos? When you sang it was serenely blissful.
You in your short hippy skirt and tights, hair all wild, holding your guitar close like an old lover. Be my lover? Did you hear my poems? Especailly on dear Lynette. I need someone like you to fill my empty life.
I looked for you as I left the pub to get the bus. You had vanished? Are you a sylph? A being of the air. Your windowsill was bare. I wish I was close to you as you sat there, my hand between your legs, kissing you ever so deeply. Lost and falling into each others' world.
Will we meet again hippy chick?
My World, My Life, My Friend (by Mel)
Ana - You are My World, My Life, My Friend.
You stand by me, in
my darkest hours.
You don't dessert me.
You help me stay in
Control!
Yes, there have been times when I left you,
but you were always
there to call me back.
I hear your Voice, in
all I do.
You speak to me,
all the time.
You give me Hope.
You give me Strength.
You the Light in my Life.
Thank you Ana for
Always being there
for Me.
You my Best Friend,
One in a Million!
Ana (by Mel)
You were my Best Friend,
My Life - I lived for you.
You blinded me, so that I could never see the damage you caused me.
Ana, you have destroyed me, and with that, I have hurt my daughters, and family so much. I cannot keep you as my friend anymore.
I'm breaking all ties with you.
Please Ana - I ask you to leave me alone now.
Stop speaking to me - it's driving me Insane.
Stop feeding me all these stories that are Not true.
You have Broken me down - Completely - so that I Hate Myself, but
no more.
I'm fighting back!
No More Ana - No More Ana!

Tuesday, 11 December 2012

Vodka

Vodka

Oh how you hurt me dear lady, making me drink all the vodka in the world. What do I do when all of the vodka has gone? I hate whisky with a vengeance. Is it possible to hate you that much? Shall I try or do I remain a gentleman? I've never hurt you directly, only indirectly with my drinking due to having a broken heart.

You caused that.

If you gave me some superglue I can try to repair this ruined heart of mine. Bit by shattered bit. Unless it’s eaten away by vodka. It took away my pain, your legacy to me.                                                    

A gift I never wanted. I wanted your love and companionship.                                                         

Not war, hurt or pain. Now I’ll try to put my life back together. My first step is calling at the off licence. I feel a drink of brandy coming on, now vodka doesn't exist.

I drank it all because of you.

Friday, 7 December 2012

BERLIN TOKYO WARHEARTS book poems by nick armbrister out on itunes/amazon

Happens

Why do I feel so disjointed in my usual way in the place where I almost belong? We were almost together my love. Because I panicked and thought you don’t want to know me, you went and found someone else. Leaving me down in the darkness, alone.
Weeks later when we talk, you say that you wish we had met. My views too. Come on over I say, we belong together. We both know it. We feel fate brought us together and this hasn’t run its course. I’ll see you in future when you’re single again. In the meantime I’m seeing a gal at weekend, it feels wrong but hey, I’ve been here before. With the wrong gal.
And in a few weeks time when we do meet, you’ll introduce me to your mates and hopefully my pagan wife will be there. Forget the new gal I’m meeting, you’re my High Priestess who protects me from myself and the evils of life. We’ll always be close my dear, please know that I love you and wish you well. Pagan to pagan.

Eclipsing Karin’s Fracture

Fracture lines of frantic events. Pretty little German girl named Karin Ulbricht. Leipzig late 1989, events so much bigger than just a mere pretty beautiful little lady. Daring to demonstrate for freedom, do you FUCKING know what you’re doing? Do you? Chasing a dream, not knowing what it is. 
BUT YOU FEEL IT IN YOUR BONES.
And know that you’re right, being in Leipzig, on THAT night. Voicing your opinion by your actions and words, you and your friends. Oh when I saw you on TV voicing your version of that night, I was caught in your rapture. I tried to find you and failed. My postcard with a Spitfire seaplane on, addressed to you in Dresden, remained unanswered. I so wanted to hear your views and talk to you, you a REAL Cold War warrior. A heroine of peace and freedom.
Dear Karin, do you know what would have happened if a single gunshot had destroyed the peace that night? What happened when you were all arrested and taken to the barracks in Leipzig, gals separated from guys? You could have all been murdered. Nazi and Stassi style. For what, peace?
All I know is that on TV you looked heartbreakingly pretty. Tell me my dear warrior woman, what date was you interviewed? Are you still as pretty and brave and vulnerable? Do I dare chase an impossible silly dream of being your friend and more? Two awful World Wars and a Cold War, Karin. Don’t you know, I’m part German?
My Pagan Goddess will bring you to me, if fate and destiny allows it. Peace my dear angel.

Witch

Witch gal hurt me so very much, not by her spells or High Priestess ways. Nor vainly trying to save me from myself. She can't stop my darkness, nor can she see my blood flow when darkness takes my happiness, adding to how she hurt me. But I forgive her, totally and unconditionally. I'm no longer a Nazi nor do I break people’s legs if they wrong me. I never once did a spell to hurt a fucking soul.
I left my Craft alone for so many years, became a real lost soul. Like the ones I write on, in my dark poems. Crossing lines. I never asked for so many things. Oh what a joyous list: being born, being different, being misunderstood and having war fighting ability with fists, weapons and words.
Above all, I never asked to live in a world of selfish people who are fucking cunts, where nations go to war and kill thousands for oil, where my life is a tragic ash filled ruin. And I never asked for the gift of writing so I could share my shit with all of YOU. Do my new spells stop my rot, guide me from my path of destruction, where SHE helped me on my way?
SHE filled the fuel tank on my broken warplane when I flew off on my suicide mission. Oh, I hope she remembers me after I blocked her for being like all of the others...                                                                                                                                          
Bleat
I blame you for all my maladies                                                                                                       
and strife in life.                                                                                                                             
Have a nice day.                                                                                                                         
Bend over and meet Mr Meat.                                                                                                              You fucking sheep!

Cyn

I look at you from across the ocean and wonder what are you thinking? Will you like my poem and my words when you read it? Would it be like a poem that you write, if you choose to do one? A collection of words, each unique as you are, all with meaning when joined together. Many things are different but many are similar. You like cakes and ice hockey. Part of your individuality. What else do you like? Music and films? Happy or sad? The years of your life traced thru a love of songs, remembering the good times but wanting to forget the bad. Just how I am. Do you think life gets harder as we get older, not easier? Broken hearts are for the young, not the old, as are hangovers. Tell me my friend, do my mere words do you justice? Wishing you well, my simple poem for you :)

Wednesday, 5 December 2012

Chemical Fire

Chemical Fire

Burn baby and give me some sulphuric hydrochloric acid smoke,
your fire gives me toasted testicles and crisps me up nicely.
Boom goes the roof when 55 gallon drums go flying and it’s all ballistic.
The money shot is when the boss’s office goes up like a fucking rocket.
He was sat at his desk and went to the moon.
Chemical Ali won’t be coming back anytime soon.
Question is where is his ten million dollar profit?
Was it hidden in an empty oil drum on a pallet of dangerous chemicals?
All the factory is ablaze, three workers died and two were injured.
They should have got blood money for working there,
no risk to life was greater and no boss more meaner.
As flames reach a hundred feet and smoke a mile in the sky,
hindsight is way too late.

Monday, 3 December 2012

Hot Day

Hot Day

It was a hot day in the Nevada desert.
Slowly in the distance, a dot trailing smoke came closer.
Minutes passed.
Above a faint jet engine sounded, no more than a whisper.
The sun was at its highest, burning mercilessly down.

An omen of coming events?

The dot was now a vehicle, an old yellow school bus.
Bars covered the windows.
Hands poked out of the gaps, as if asking for solace.
Rumbling along at twenty miles per hour, the bus eventually stopped.
Level ground arced out miles around it, leaving the vehicle naked.
Rusty hinges creaked and the front and rear doors slowly opened.
Nothing happened for a few seconds.
Then three dozen hardened criminals sensed freedom and left in a riot of arms and legs.
Some ran almost falling, others staggered unable to grasp that they were ‘free.’

Up above the jet engine was louder now, diving down upon its target.
With sudden ferocity the F-20 Tigershark opened fire with twin 20MM cannons.

TAT - ATAT - TATA - TAT! roared the guns.

Shells kicked up sand, bounced off rocks and exploded across the bus.
In a hiss one tyre burst, the bus leaned drunkenly over.
A small fire started inside.
Several men were sprawled on the ground, red blood soaking in.
Other prisoners now knew what was happening:

liquidation.

They ran for their lives as the jet curved round to re-attack.
It dropped a cluster bomb at a group of fifteen prisoners.

POP - POP - POP - POP! went the small bomblets when the case opened.

Most were killed outright, sliced and diced by anti personnel bombs.
One or two had arms and legs blown off, they moaned for their mothers.

A small hill gave cover for four men.
Rolling down range, the fighter came in.
The pilot selected rockets.

WHOOSH - WHOOSH - WHOOSH  WHOOSH! screamed the 80MM explosive rockets.

Like the cluster bomb, they were area weapons and the complete hill was blanketed.
Nothing survived the wicked explosions except drifting smoke.

Another gun run hit three men running over the open desert, cutting them down.
Two more men stood their ground and told the F-20 pilot to fuck off.
The pilot saw their raised fingers.
His remaining cluster bomb soon sorted them out.
Now it was time for his ‘dumb’ bombs.
Three tumbled free, aimed by computer, and hit the yellow bus.

BOOM - BOOM - BOOM! spoke the 750lb bombs.

A cacophony of sound and violence tore the smouldering machine apart.
Six men who had doubled back and hid inside or under it were blown to Hell.
With only a few cannon shells left of air to ground ordnance, the pilot spotted a lone figure.
A dive, a burst, a kill and it was over. Too easy!

Climbing back to altitude, the Tighershark went in search of his only airborne target -
a Boeing 747 full of 500 murderers.
Like the old school bus, it was remotely controlled with no crew.
Two Sidewinder missiles would take care of this beast and his underwing drop tanks were still half full.
Happily the merc pilot grinned. This line of work was fun and paid well.

And it got rid of scum.