Wednesday, 27 February 2013

Last Tat Session 2012

Last Tat Session 2012

Today is the day of my last tattoo session in 2012.
From March to December I got so much ink.
More than you can shake a stick at.
Tarot card art, warplanes, poems and much more.
Not sure which is my fave.
Amelia Earhart’s portrait or my Boeing 40 biplane?
My arm gaps are full so I have sleeves.
Space remains on my chest,
time for these later.
I’ve full lower legs and single tats on each thigh.
After my upper legs are done,
it’s onto my back.
And a certain gal tattooist can tattoo my dick!
Back to today.
I’m having a wheat bushel and Terra name,
my connection to our planet.
A Curtiss SB2C Helldiver will kick Jap ass.
Son of a Bitch 2nd Class style.
Bring on 2013.

Sunday, 24 February 2013

Martian Gothic

Martian Gothic

It was a unique environment.
They were unique people in a unique place.
A mountain fifteen thousand metres high with a vertical south face.
Two pretty Goth girls stood on the edge.
One footstep forward and it was a huge fall to the Martian plateau.
Three hundred metres in front of the girls was a fine layer of Cirus cloud,
thirty metres thick.
The Terraforming had worked brilliantly providing a heavy Earth like atmosphere on Mars.
Olympus Mons was a great holiday destination for young East European adventurers like Hanneke and Silge.
Hanneke had waist length black hair and Silge shoulder length red hair with lip piercings.
Both were equally beautiful as the magnificent landscape straight out of a sci-fi film.
They were taking time out of their Earth based Martian Geology course after a short field trip.
A quick hike was a chance to chill out and take in the stunning views.

Martian Gothic (short)

Unique environment unique people.
Fifteen thousand metre mountain vertical south face.
Two pretty Goth girls stood on the edge.
One footstep fall to Martian plateau.
Three hundred metres ahead thirty metre layer of Cirrus cloud.
Terraforming worked brilliantly Earth like atmosphere.
Olympus Mons great holiday destination for East European adventurers.
Hanneke had waist length black hair,
Silge shoulder length red hair with lip piercings.
Both beautiful like the magnificent sci-fi film landscape.
Chance to hike,
enjoy stunning views after their Earth based Martian Geology course and field trip.






Friday, 22 February 2013

Sky Fight

Sky Fight

What makes the game even more interesting is that you can never win.
Or if you know you’ll lose from the start and you still enter the game, to lose.
As a student of air warfare, never ever fight the enemy on their rules.
But what happens if you do?
There’s a gothic saying...
‘Doing the wrong thing for the right reasons...’
Goth or no Goth, those words are the real deal.
Your comment reminds me of a crazy
but fascinating dog fight of an English Electric Lighting jet fighter
and a late Mark Griffon engine Spitfire, maybe Mk24.
Was in the late 50s.
Spit could never win even tho it could do 450mph level flight and dive past 600mph. Lightning was 1500mph jet.
The Spit could out turn the jet.
Jet could climb from below, hit from above, high speed slash attack.
You get the idea.
Yet they did this fight.
Shame both weren’t armed...
The Lightning pilot had a bang seat,
the Spit pilot a chute...

Tuesday, 19 February 2013

Autumn Lady

Autumn Lady

Anna with autumn hair and summer eyes.
Lady from afar here in England.
With such charisma, capturing her image in a blink of your eye.
Imagine that there was only ever one sunrise; that is Anna's beauty.
As memorable as a waterfall, free and never still.
In movement.
Never a prisoner of anyone.
Always laughing and smiling, never sad or in tears.
Her laughter is infectious.
Anna will make you laugh, banishing your sadness.
With Albanian and Greek culture and relatives, Anna is very unique.
In her mind's eye Anna dreams of rugged beautiful landscapes and flies over them like a lark.
Swerving and swooping with total movement.
Imagine Anna dancing, in tune with the music.
That's Anna.
Alive with movement.
Her personality is as colourful as the cakes she makes.
Happy, confident, smiling, funny, sweet, cultured, intelligent.
Anna.
Greek autumn lady!!!

Saturday, 16 February 2013

MENTAL ASYLUM

MENTAL ASYLUM

In the long dark walls there is another world to behold.
It’s a place no one outside can see except me.
I escaped from this place, so now I am free in my own
little world.
It’s a world of pink pretty tanks, cuddly little pussycats
and spiked dangerous goblins.
I am a modern thinking technocrat who loves himself.
No, I ain’t selfish, just plain old sensible.

How exactly I escaped is only known to me.
One day Ill tell you but for now it’s my little secret…


Wednesday, 13 February 2013

Goth Fall

Goth Fall

What a cool gothic chick I hooked up with online.
We shared the same interests.
A pretty, kind, intelligent, funny woman.
I thought this is it.
I've met my soulmate.
No more loneliness or being misunderstood by the wrong gals.
What a catch.
Something stopped us being together.
She sensed it.
Bad news got in the way of us.
Half a bottle of vodka engulfed my oblivion.
It's cancer.
I don't know had bad.
I'm gutted.
She sent me this message:

Heya nick lovely lad...im so sorry for not txtin u....ive had bad news n i need to deal wiv it.i wud love to have met you but now i fear we cannot...u see it wouldn't b fair on u. Ur txts and books and pics av been lovely to get each day and have helped(are helping)but i have dark times ahead...i knew i was being kept from you for a reason. Ur far too lovely for me crash into ur life only to leave you brokenhearted one day. I am sad beyond words not for my battle ahead but for my chance of meeting you being ruined in the cruelest way...you are an amazing man and an amazing spirit... Im sorry for toutching your life and being so unavailable...that was never fair of me and not my intention...bless you gorgeous man,you will find good love,its in ur future.love Katie xxxxx

I was on a real downer.
I deleted her number, my awfully capable defensive mechanisms kicking in.
Later she emailed me, in response to my flurry of skyfall emails.
Why didn’t I reply to her text about my gig?
I’ve no recollection of getting that text.
She would have gone.
Imagine her being there, after I was outa my fucking face on vodka.
Due to her.
My wounds healed.
But no.
We’re apart.
And darkness engulfs me again.
Welcome back old friend...




Monday, 11 February 2013

older poems

BE AN EARL

I swirl through the sea this way and that,
I twirl around the sky in all ways at once,
I whirl through time watching the years spin
on by, I curl down the rippling flow of fiery lava,
I hurl myself out of the window violently
to the ground, I knurl the woodwork into neat round ridges.
I’m now finished so I’ll be noble and be an earl.

RUSSIAN EAGLES

Come here and I’ll tell you a tale about two Russian kids high
on acid who did themselves in.
They took some acid tabs and fucked themselves daft,
downing a bottle of cheap vodka.
Their heads started to swirl all ways at once just like a bird flies.
Up to the roof they went and like birds they flew
smashing to the ground like the broken eagles
they were, still holding hands.




CHEATED

Go to a field to see the circle with its spiralling arc
and graceful shapes all cast upon the corn.
Aren’t they mystical, such an unexplained phenomena?
Do you think it’s a mystery or an elaborate hoax?
See for yourself, flattened corn in a perfect circle
twenty yards across.
Can you feel the energy coming from the earth?
They’re like UFOs, ghosts and aliens.
We need something to believe in, in our material world,
something mystical and magical, so we aren’t cheated
by life.



STUCK

Here I am stuck in limbo that leads to nothing.
When I ask the question how I got here
there is no answer, just the same old feeling
of cold desolation.
There is no future, it’s as dead as the past
so there is only now with its time-stopping paralysis.

BLUE

The blue of the sky gives away
its intent among its contrasting colours.
From deep turquoise of the ocean to crystalline
twilight of the dawn it casts its hue upon us all.
From upon the high hills
to deep amongst the city
we feel its colours of the atmosphere atop
our shoulders giving us precious life.

Sunday, 3 February 2013

some older poems...

RIGHT NOW

(for all the dark ones who have loved and lost, or who
are still looking for their soulmates…)

My grave is calling me, blackness coming to claim me,
at last a release from this tortured world, not my world.
I so wish I had loved a dark evil soul, that she was my soulmate
and perished by her own hand, then I could follow her,
end my days, pain, nothingness.
I have no option, have no one to love, to be my soulmate,
my final guardian angel.
So my friends you will have to forgive me
if I end my life and call it a day.
Loneliness is pure, pain is clarity, death absolute.
Maybe my soulmate will find me, save me, someday –
but my days are against that, starting right now…


UNCARING MAN

We, the developed world, we rape
the rain forests for wood for middleclass homes,
we drill for oil in the Arctic wilderness for our own selfish greed.
We trawl the sees and take the fish for our fat bellies,
uncaring and naïve…
A dozen species are killed off every day, extinct
before their time and now no more but recent history.
Our atmosphere chokes on poison smog, ozone destroyed
sending UV rays down like laser bullets, skin cancer rife.
What will be next? Our world is part of us
but only I see that…
taking it for granted is a sin,
arrogant uncaring man raping her
like some two bit whore.



CRITICISE

Criticise this, criticise that – it’s your job.
Criticise me, criticise the world – it’s your shout.
Criticise your mother, criticise your dad, stupid big mouth.
Can you do the ultimate criticism? Criticise yourself,
pull yourself apart and see the inner you to see
your weakness and do an honest criticism?
I don’t think you can.



DUTCH VALENTINE

Dutch Valentine, forever my love –
then who are you to do this to me, tormenting my soul?
Who are you to do this to me, pull my heart apart, to own it?
Of fallen heroes in burning planes from across the ocean, spiralling
to the sea and death.
Release?
Evil girl from the ice land, was once mine, then many others.
To all those evil ones I have loved, we are all the generation
of the damned and lost – so lost.
We wouldn’t have it any other way, would we?
To be the fallen ones. Mental illness, lost love, broken
hearts, black arts, minds collapse.
We are something that we can only be, us, the weird
ones who would die for our cause, nothing else.
Do others fear us or mock us or respect us?
Are they our friends or our enemies?
No one knows.



Friday, 1 February 2013

Bellyache (for Weird Harold)

I'M THE MOST TATTOOED SON OF A BITCH, 2ND CLASS, IN THE FUCKING CANYON...

Bellyache (for Weird Harold)

In the American desert were a load of trash airplanes waiting to be scrapped.
On a muggy night under a million stars something strange occurred.
One of the first pre-production F-15 Eagle fighters was at rest, quietly asleep.
Resting on flat tyres, with faded paint and creaking spars, it was a derelict.

No longer high tech, a threat to an enemy or even museum quality, this Eagle was junk.
Hot desert sun expanded the alloy and cold nights shrunk it, birds shat on it.
No one wanted it, not even the scrap men; it lied here forlorn and aging badly.

Then it happened.

An over flight by a flying disc.
Not one from nearby Area 51.

No.

From Red China.

Did the Chinks want the Eagle’s secrets for a new rip off fighter jet?
Then they could build an F-15 without licence and make a hundred.

No!

They already had Russian Flankers and rip off versions of that, hundreds in total.
Not to mention their two stealth fighters.
So why a Red China secret flying saucer over a derelict early version Eagle fighter?
An eccentric businessman from Shanghai saw a photo in an old aircraft magazine.

He came up with a brilliant idea: steal it!

Like the Yanks did with Firefox, sending in Clint Eastwood.
Sadly the businessman was no Eastwood nor was any Red Chinese pilot.
But money talked and deals were done, all illegal.
So the shiny disc hung motionless over the Eagle.

Sitting inside on one of the panda leather seats was the businessman.
He could hardly hide his joy!
After all, the Chinks hid their feelings.
Nodding, he gave the order.
Steal the F-15A Eagle from its desert bone yard!

Doors opened up under the flying saucer and a green tractor beam zapped on.
The Chinese couldn’t see the green beam, being colour blind after a previous accident.
Agonisingly slowly the Eagle was lifted aboard the craft.

For a second it hung in the air.

A drunken old cross dresser called Weird Harold was a witness.
In disbelief he gawped at his moonshine bottle.
By all that is unholy! he thought.
When he looked back, both Eagle and saucer had vanished.

Harold fell into a drunken stupor.
He awoke sixteen hours later.
A call to the sleepy aircraft bone yard guard ended in laughter.

It wasn’t Harold laughing.

There was an empty gap where the jet had been.
Only Weird Harold knew this; no one listened to him.

Gone were his days fixing deniable Soviet Migs in the desert.
Even then he wore a summer dress and army boots; nothing more.
He cracked a new bottle of ‘shine and waited.

Soon silky desert darkness descended.
A shape blacker than the night between the stars suddenly glided into view.
The Red China disc was back!

Harold whooped with joy and downed half a bottle of moonshine.

The green beam popped on and the missing Eagle was lowered carefully to the ground.
It was over in seconds.

The drunken airplane enthusiast fell asleep.
Hours later he hobbled over to the Eagle.
You’re back my beauty, he whispered to himself.

Then it dawned on him.

Damn plane is facing the wrong way!
Bloody authorities will blame me, grumbled Harold.
In a huff he smoothed his pink summer dress out.

Back in Red China the businessman had his own version of a derelict American F-15A.
Complete with flat tyres and bird crap.
His new laser copying machine worked a treat, paid for by bootleg DVDs.