Monday, 30 April 2012

RED EMPIRE STORY

3,350 words
RED EMPIRE by Nick Armbrister
It was an evil empire that stretched one third of the way around the world, eight thousand miles from Europe to Asia, crossing many time zones and types of topography from the hot deserts of Kazakhstan to icy Siberian wastes. Silent but watchful radar eyes peered out every hour, waiting for an attack that had not happened, yet. Out to sea, into space, over land, in the air, this vigilance went on to set into motion, into movement that would lead to Armageddon if a suspect blip proved to be an enemy bomber, one of many doing its deadly work. An event would happen today, smaller but of equal consequences. History would be made, missiles launched and people’s lives changed forever, some ended permanently...
Air Base 1602, Kamachatka Peninsula. Alert jets stood on the concrete waiting for the order to scramble with pilots strapped into the cockpits, canopies down and power on. Four long sleek missiles hung under the silver aircraft, bare metal shining in the new spring sun. Two missiles per wing, two Infra-Red guided homing in on an enemies engine exhaust, balanced out by two Radar guided missiles homing onto metal reflected on the interceptor’s own radar. Like a torch in the night sky saying, “I am here!”
Lead Pilot Sevinsky Tupelov checked his radio for the nth time. In his native Russian he spoke businesslike: “Red Bird Lead to tower, any new orders for us? Over.”
A reply was instantaneous. “No new orders yet, Red Bird Lead. All screens are clear. Keep vigilant and alert. If we have any new information we will contact you. Out.”
Three hours into the alert it happened – an intermittent blip on the Long Range radar screen. One sweep of the lazy radar arm – blip. Nothing for several seconds. Radar operator becoming aware, staring at his now blank screen, willing it to blip again and kill his boredom. Blip. Yes, there! Blip, blip, blip. A solid skin paint passing extreme range coming into the radars eye, an all-seeing Type 21 “Light Top” Long Range Search Radar, at a range of two hundred and eight miles. No given altitude yet. A couple more minutes and that information would be forthcoming. In the meantime:
“Radar Station North at Air Base 1602 to Command. We have an unknown contact estimated speed four hundred miles an hour on a bearing of 150 degrees at extreme range. No given height yet. Standby for that information Command. Over.” People came to life and computers absorbed data from the unseen contact seen by the Long Range radar. Men trained in the science of air defence did their jobs – they were the best. A chain of events started that couldn’t be stopped. Human nature and human error would lead to catastrophe – it was a sign of the times.
“Command to Radar Station North, observe contact and keep reporting bearing and height information when you get it. If the target comes to within one hundred and fifty miles, scramble your alert jets. Your orders are to identify and classify. Out.” The Command centre located two hundred miles north of the airbase issued their orders.
“Okay, Command, will do. Standby for new range information.” Checking his green screen for several seconds and taking in the numbers, the operator replied: “Target is now one hundred and ninety four miles still on the same heading and at the same speed. Height is now thirty six thousand feet. Over.”
Moving closer to them the bogey headed through the clear blue cloudless sky. A snow-covered landscape evened out this beautiful view, idyllic in itself – a distraction of what would later happen.
“Okay Radar Station North, try to communicate verbally with the unidentified aircraft. It might be an American spy plane. We need to identify this. Out.”
Peering at his scope the Long Range Radar Controller picked up his intercom link and contacted his superior officer in Command. “Captain, this is Sergeant Valeri. I have picked up a Long Range contact on radar at 150 degrees, speed four hundred, height thirty six thousand. The target is unidentified, repeat unidentified. I have contacted Air Defence Control and have been ordered to scramble the alert planes when the target crosses one hundred and fifty miles distance from our base.”
“Keep reading off the range, height, speed and bearing. Inform Control every ten miles and also myself. Presently I will pass target spotting to the Medium Range Controller. Good work Sergeant Valeri.”
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In the alert interceptors Lead Pilot Tupelov fidgeted against his tight seat straps. Thoughts of his coming leave distracted him from his duties: no more snowy wastes, no more twenty four hour alert duties, twelve spent in this cramped Sukhoi cockpit for his Motherland. A sharp radio call snapped him out of his daydream; instinct took over and he became all the professional. “Lead Pilot Tupelov, this is the Control Tower. We have an unidentified radar contact presently passing the one hundred and fifty mile line, the Point of No Return. Height is thirty six thousand feet, bearing one five zero degrees, speed four hundred miles an hour. Your orders are to scramble with Red Bird Two and to identify and to escort the intruder out of our airspace. If the target doesn’t comply your orders are to fire warning shots and to destroy it if it doesn’t comply. Over.”
“Okay. Lead Pilot Tupelov and Wingman Ivan will comply. Out.”
In the radar complex all verbal orders for the target to identify itself remained unanswered. Was it a deliberate ploy or a grave error? On the runway both Sukhoi Su­-15 “Flagon” alert interceptors started the engines and finished their cockpit checks. Taxiing out to the runway orders were exchanged and followed. Lighting the afterburners for take off, the morning was shattered by four sheets of flame pushing the silver fighters down the concrete and into the sky. Red stars on their flanks showed up ominously as the jets climbed up into the blue sky, arcing out to sea towards the intruder. Missiles were armed and radars activated from standby mode. The race was on.
Coming out of afterburner to save fuel with speed at six hundred knots, both huge Sukhoi jets increased height leaving their base behind them on the receding coastline. Passing thirty five thousand feet after three minutes of climb they slowed the climb as they came to the intruder’s altitude. Both “Spin Scan” radars in the interceptors’ nose stayed blank; their search range was only eighty kilometres with a lock on range of fifty in good conditions. Old radars using vacuum tubes took some careful handling to work properly. Here in the clear air at altitude with no weather to confuse the radar or ground clutter to give false echoes, conditions couldn’t be better. It would be less than a minute when they acquired the target at roughly fifty miles distance; that would run down to thirty miles lock on when the radar could guide a missile successfully. Radar seekers in the missile would seek out the enemy and obliterate it. Trying his Infra-Red Search and Track sensor to find the target, Tupelov grumbled to himself when his screen remained blank. He knew he was out of range and a head-on intercept had the least probability of success. A tail chase would be best suited due to the heat of the engines but precious fuel would be used to overhaul the target plane. This intercept profile was a head-on one, so Ground Radar guided them to the target. Commands came through Tupelov’s headphones that he relayed to his wingman, but he would be able to find the enemy anyhow due to his experience and it being daylight and clear weather.
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------On the ground tension mounted. This had never happened before for all intruders had turned away of their own accord or been escorted by the interceptors at a range little less than 200 miles. This was much closer – it was different. It must be an American spy plane, one of their modified Boeing airliners full of listening gear and cameras and God knows what to monitor Soviet radars and communications in the area. Could it be a bomber, one of the dangerous B-52’s armed with nuclear bombs? What if it was a rogue pilot on a one-way doomsday mission, intent on starting a Third World War? His training quickly stopped him from second-guessing. Procedures had to be followed. If the alert fighters failed then ground-based missiles would be armed and turned towards the distant target until forty miles away, then launched. A last minute insurance policy for one could never be too sure. Mother Russia needed to be protected from the enemy Capitalists.
There! At a search range of fifty-three miles the “Spin Scan” radar of Red Bird Two painted the target, not a faint paint like the Long Range radar had picked up before but a firm image. It must be a large aircraft! “Red Bird Two to Red Bird Leader. I have picked up a contact off our nose at fifty-three miles. Do you have it yet? Over.”
“Aaah, no Red Bird Two, don’t have it on my scope yet. What heading is it on?”
“Off our nose now passing fifty miles. Heading is five degrees off our track. Over.”
“I have it now, Red Bird Two, I have him on my scope. Stick close and be observant. I will contact Ground Control for further instructions. Out.”
Distance counted down on radar displays, in computer banks, in people’s heads. A faint contrail became visible at thirty kilometres, a delicate thread of white gossamer trailing behind the target. Frozen water droplets from the engine’s exhaust. Their own contrails would soon be visible from their smaller Sukhoi jets, both of which would still be smaller than whatever they were intercepting. This was a large target. Infra-Red sensors picked up a faint heat trace but not enough for a firing solution. No problem, the radar moved into Lock On mode. Tupelov’s gloved hands moved over controls establishing the Lock On for the Radar guided missiles, two on each Sukhoi. If launched now these deadly AA-6 “Anab” medium range missiles would speed towards their enemy at a speed of Mach 3 and kill it. Unless decoyed by large amounts of chaff or by electronic jamming. The Infra Red guided missiles picked up a heat trace at a head-on distance at fifteen kilometres, half of the thirty of their Radar Guided brothers.
Shooting through the sky like a pair of predators on the hunt, the merge began – a silver airplane came into blue streaming a large contrail. Big, fat, with four engines. A Boeing of some kind
“There he is, there he is! Come round and circle him. Take up position on his starboard wing. I’ll take the port and attempt to see if they visually acquire us.” In his excitement Lead Pilot Tupelov forgot to use the correct terminology for his wingman. It didn’t matter – the message passed from fighter to fighter.
“Yes, I see him Red Bird Lead. Will formate to starboard on him. Out.” Arcing round and joining formation both silver red starred jets joined the Boeing in a textbook formation, studying the target plane for many seconds, gathering information. Tupelov used his training to do his duty; he checked his throttle settings, opened his airbrakes slightly and moved his stick to waggle his wings. Then flashed his landing lights in broad daylight – a useless act? And again, rock his wings, the lights. No reply. Time for a radio call.
“Unidentified aircraft, you are in restricted airspace. Identify yourself and prepare to follow us. Over.”
No reply came. Several seconds passed and the message was passed again. Silence followed. Lead Pilot Tupelov radioed his base and reported the situation. They ordered him to fire two bursts of warning shots. Mounted below the fuselage of each Sukhoi fighter was a pair of cannon packs each containing a deadly twin barrel 23mm cannon and one hundred and twenty rounds of High Explosive cannon shells, a deadly cargo of death. Gently pressing the arming switch and flicking up the spring-loaded switch on his control stick, Tupelov pressed the trigger with his thumb. His twenty-five ton jet shook as a one second burst from his cannon sent fifty or so shells spearing into the blue sky.
This had an effect. Dipping his port wing and banking round hard, the heavy Boeing curved into the flight path of the lead Soviet fighter. Tupelov was about to fire again when his wingman shouted a warning. At the same time he saw the imminent collision. His left hand firewalled the throttles to maximum dry thrust and his right hand pushed the control stick downwards to get him out of the way of danger. His quick reflexes and training controlled his fear and anger. He was safe, the port wing of the Boeing missed Tupelov’s cockpit canopy by thirty feet. He hadn’t lost his edge. “Red Bird Lead to Red Bird Two. Follow his turn. I’ll join you in a minute. Keep on his tail and arm your weapons.”
“On his tail, Red Bird Lead, following. Weapons are armed. Out.”
“Red Bird Lead to Control. Target aircraft has just aggressively turned towards me as I fired warning shots. He missed me by ten metres and is heading away from his original course. I am in formation behind him now with Red Bird Two. Aircraft identity is confirmed as a silver Boeing 707 type plane. No visible markings or identification markings are visible. Request permission to bring it down, over.”
That was it, then. All means of identification had failed. Now a line had been crossed and people would die and an airplane would be destroyed. A reply came through quickly, clearly worded.
“Target course is bringing him closer to us. Permission is granted to open fire and destroy him. Out.”
In position with his wingman Tupelov matched the Boeing’s speed and fine-tuned his Heads Up Display so he could still see the big fat jetliner past his glowing green target cross. This hovered over a large circle of the fuselage, radar locked on in cannon mode. Slowly, almost intimately, Lead Pilot Tupelov pressed the trigger shooting his shells out, no warning this time. Five hundred yards ahead a multitude of orange flashes danced on the Boeing as 23mm High Explosive shells exploded. Pieces of metal tumbled lazily backwards and downwards. Holes remained where the smooth alloy skin had been hit; damage was minor relating to the size of the target – not enough to bring it down. With a touch of left rudder Tupelov gently yawed his interceptor so he was behind the left wing and twin engines which both spewed out a turbulent exhaust that froze and became a jet contrail in the frigid air. Acting quickly he climbed out of this so he was above but in the same position. Pushing his nose down he fired a one second burst as his nose fell through the line of the target. He used his momentum to roll away from the turbulence and contrails, not stopping to inspect his fire.
“Red Bird Two, your turn to open fire. Aim to disable his engines or fuel tanks; his fuselage soaks up your gunfire. I will cover you. Over.”
“Will do, Red Bird Leader. It looks like your last burst has damaged him; he is smoking on the port wing. Am lining up now. Out.” Wingman Sergeant Ivan replied, wondering what it would be like, doing this for real.
In a similar manner to his leader, Number Two lined his jet up and opened fire, his first burst arcing lazily over the starboard wing. Calming his nerves and his breathing, he fired again after correcting his aim. Letting all of his ammunition go in one long burst, he peppered the silver Boeing with lethal High Explosive shells, cutting hydraulic control lines to the starboard wing flaps. Fluid flowed like blood down the damaged wing and atomised in the airflow into a fine mist. One section of flap came away from the control mounting and moved down its actuator path, jamming on one side. This created drag and turbulence and shook the whole aircraft. Jagged shell holes and damage doomed the Boeing. A section of spoiler from the front leading edge of the wing detached to spin past like confetti. Flames leapt out of a shattered number four engine. Shattered fan blades had punctured fuel lines and more dangerously the main outboard fuel tank. Escaping fuel streamed back and mixed with hydraulic fluid, a Devil’s brew that ignited with a whoomph! Losing height with locked controls and a dead engine and major damage, time was against the Boeing.
“Red Bird Two to Red Bird Lead, I have exhausted my ammunition. Target plane is badly damaged. Over.”
“Red Bird Lead to Red Bird Two. Drop back onto me – we will use heat seeking missiles to finish him. The fire will provide a strong heat signature greater than his engines. Stay by my side and we will fire together from ten kilometres. Standby to manoeuvre now. Out.”
Describing a large circle, both of the silver Sukhoi “Flagon” interceptors came round and positioned themselves ten clicks behind the doomed Boeing. While doing this Tupelov informed Control of current events. At twenty thousand feet Tupelov used his infra red sensor to lock onto the heat, three running engines and a hundred long banner of flame from the right wing tanks, leaking hydraulic fluid, a dead engine and port wing damage on an engine that still ran. Locking his “Spin Scan” radar on made sure he wouldn’t miss or fail. On his radar screen a large box surrounded the blip of the Boeing; a similar one with a cross inside was displayed on the HUD. On the Infra-Red sensor screen a black shape like a knife on edge with a long sausage in the middle showed up. White bits danced and glowed angrily – fire and heat from the damaged and remaining engines. A high pitch noise filled Tupelov’s earphones telling him that his heat seeking AA-6 “Anab” missiles had a solid lock on. Ivan’s followed a moment later. In unison both pilots launched. Under each outer wing panel a heat seeking Infra-Red guided missile left its launch rail on a tail of white fire. Leaving a delicate white smoke trail, four missiles speared through the blue sky to their target covering miles in seconds at Mach 3 plus. In a simultaneous impact and detonation four warheads appeared as one and destroyed the target. There were yellow flashes as four one hundred and forty pound explosive warheads, mixed with titanium shrapnel, caused carnage. Blown into large bits, taken to pieces by missile power, flaming debris fell earthwards. A cloud of burning fuel fanned out, black smoke boiling upwards. Trails of fiery smoke followed what had once been a large shiny silver airplane, down to a watery grave. No one survived, no one baled out, nothing.
Once again the Soviet Motherland had been protected from foreign airborne intrusion by the enemy by a powerful system of radars and interceptors. If this had been a B-52 with a Hydrogen bomb, a city or more would have been saved. With fuel running low both Soviet interceptors turned for home. One last radio message was sent by a quiet Lead Pilot Tupelov.
“Target is destroyed, repeat target is destroyed by cannon and missile fire. It has blown up and is falling into the ocean. There appears to be no survivors. Permission to return to base. Over.”
“Control to Red Bird Lead, good work,” Control replied. “Permission granted. Return to base. Use runway one-two. Search and rescue planes are scrambling. Please give shoot down location. Out.”
An international incident had occurred, people had died, an airplane shot down. Was it a spy plane or an airliner? Events would move fast now, either to solve this tragic event or lead to World War Three. God knew the answer.

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Saturday, 28 April 2012

Natalie. Natalie and Nick new nat poem

Natalie. Natalie and Nick

I forgive you Ruth for hurting me. Now I must move on and go far away from you. I’m getting married to my warrior friend. Please don’t be mad with me. I think you’d approve and like Natalie. She loves gothic music and even has a band called Mayo, never mind her tattoos and love of flying. Like you, she speaks to me in my dreams. Unlike you, she won’t ever hurt me. I wish you happiness with your new flame, Ruth. I must go and meet my new bride.
What is it with dark haired girls? For Natalie, my kindred spirit who finishes my sentences and loves kebabs, as I do! I see myself inside of you and I see you in me. You, my dear Latino lady. My lover, my sister, my friend, my wife, mother of my children. Protector of my country, your country, our country. You showed me your world, a group of islands, South Atlantic. So beautiful, like you aged 18 in 1982 and now 48 in 2012. Malvinas, Falklands. Our home.
I hold your hand and see the waves lap at the shore, eternal movement. Like the planets. Oh Natalie, we shouldn’t be together. We are. You the Argentinean lady, me the English guy. Enemies no more. Later, you’ll take me flying in your red Spanish two seat stunt plane. We’ll touch the aquamarine blue and loop the loop, fly low over the ocean free as a bird and stall turn like a butterfly. I’ll protect you from repression and pain my dear wife. Forever.
If we can be happy and at peace, so can our two countries. Let them learn from us. Peace and love, born from the war that cost you a leg. Nearly your life. Now a new life grows slowly in your belly. If he’s a boy, we’ll call him Roberto, if a girl, Mahalia. In memory of your lost Disappeared friends.  

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Tuesday, 24 April 2012

Evenly Erotic: Short Erotic Stories out now

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Featuring four short erotic stories: No More Mr Frog Man about two friends who become a little too close. Will they ruin their close friendship by their desires for one another? Down in the Woods features an adult film shoot with a difference. When a problem arises, will there be any action? Multi cultural, multi action, strangely funny. Safe as Houses promotes safe sex and the use of condoms, with action in a quiet pub between the bar girl and a customer and more. Moving East is the story of a rough and ready guy who searches for a better life. He certainly has fun! Cross dressing, sex, beer and more in this mad romp by the seaside.

Monday, 23 April 2012

early poems from my 1st ever book FADE INTO FOCUS, FOCUS INTO FADE


more older poems from my FADE INTO FOCUS, FOCUS INTO FADE book

SLOWLY, SPEEDILY TURNING

All at once both slow and fast all at once. A sense of motion is awesome,
has anyone ever felt such a heady rush of speed
together with total slowness and lack of motion?
Let's set off on our journey up to the hills,
we will arrive in seconds and in days…
here there are two speed vortices that we share at the same time, continuously.
Who an earth wants to move both slow and fast at once? I would for one.
Soon maybe everyone can – it may happen to them when they don't expect it…
standing still and your world starts to rush by, unending rush.


BATTLEGROUND

Yes, I have been there, I have taken devastating loses and I have won immense victories you'd be amazed to see, I know all the rules and how to fight to win or to lose in this the battleground of life. If you knew all of what I know and all I have seen it would shock you as it still does me.
The weapons, my weapons, are not guns or bombs but the sweet taste of revenge and the enjoyment of ignorance and harshness to my opponents.
Sometime there is collateral damage, isn't that part of every battle?
If you wanna be friends that's great but if you wanna fight that suits me too,
it's not just you or me who calls the shots but every single one of us in the battleground of life.



IT DOESN'T HAVE TO BE LIKE THIS

Here we are in the pub with records on the jukebox and a cold beer in front of us
but I ain't having a good time, 'cause you have hurt me and now you ignore me.
For two hours you ignore me and only talked to him, I think it's wrong but I'm too shy to say something. I know it's me who should speak but I don't, am I wrong not to?
You' d probably say I am. I'll try to forgive you but I can't as even now I want revenge and I will get it, you started this, so I'll finish it and we are now at war and you are my enemy. It'll be dial a pizza and taxis at your place for the next two years.





FORGOTTEN PROMISES

We talk face-to-face, so close, so fragile. In the morning I say goodbye
my eyes searching her tearful eyes for one last gleam of hope.
Then I go, I promise from the bottom of my heart to phone you and I will
But I never do as the headlong rush that is life rushes me by,
making that one night seem so long ago.
I ask myself, did it happen? Really? I mean, all I have is the memory of the
sweat on your body and the curve of your figure.
In some faceless, nameless town I meet you in the street, your eyes pierce me
and reduce me to ashes. I'm so sorry I broke my promise but life forgot all
about me.



SO I LOVE MY COUNTRY

The scream of the shells and the sight of the smashed buildings make my town look like a war zone; that's just what it is, so many have died. I'm past caring, I've seen so many fall, so pointlessly, at a dozen battles over this tortured country.
Your Russian planes will never break us – no, not ever even if it all leads to us all being killed.
Today my commander phoned up the Russian chief of staff but he hung up the phone,
we want a ceasefire and for you to leave our country and for this terrible war to stop.
Yet you're not willing to talk, to negotiate, how can it stop? It will spiral downwards where only nuclear weapons will stop it, turning people to ash, the ground to glass and our country to nothing. All because you didn't want to talk.

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Saturday, 21 April 2012

poems written in the early 00s

LOST SOULS

The crime is with the leaders, you caused the death of thousands,
destroyed two cities. Cursed your generation so it became the guinea pig,
the atomic generation. You all glow in the dark, legacy lasting to my life.
Now more have the bomb, ten thousand times bigger than the Hiroshima firecracker,
that destroyed your city. Old people walk happily down the street,
look them in the eye, they don’t blink. See into their soul and witness what they saw. Beside them young people holding hands and enjoying each other’s conversation,
no cares in the world. New generation, innocent? Children holding their parents’ hands
and looking happy. Will they ever experience those awful scenes and events from sixty
years ago? What do they think of their relatives who lost their lives,
do they think to themselves, what was all that? Did it really happen?
Time moves on but one question hangs in the air, breathlessly, still poignant:
Will it happen again? Who, what will start the madness, how many will die
in the next mushroom cloud? You, me, my family, our world?




CHAFF

Tuesday is February, an unwanted day
like the unwanted month, of no use whatsoever.
Might as well call it the unwanted day and useless month.
Can’t go and get pissed or dance in a glitzy club on a Tuesday.
It wouldn’t feel right if you could, the working week not even half thru.
What to do? Play darts at the pub? Okay for sad middle-aged fat men.
And what to do in February? Go and get a tan in Spain, yea right.
Or skiing in Norway, my spiritual home.
For us all February and Tuesday are useless,
no more but chaff against the wheat.
Come on July and Friday!



QUESTION MARK

Bad day coming here round the corner to get me.
Repetitive comeuppance for my dark thoughts
and my lonely life, all in a circle. To break
this I need: a decent job I like with good pay
and suitable hours, lots of love in my relationship
with a special love life, all mine. Too much to ask
it seems, in my mouldy flat in Oldham,
my relationship on the edge due to no real love life.
No rumpy pumpy for me, so do I find a lover
to end my frustrations? Fate will rule the outcome
and guide me: where I end up is a question mark.



FLAT, ALIVE

Nature’s vibrant garden is alive in my flat.
Tell me why, my pagan gods and goddesses,
why I have such a diverse area of wildlife and culture,
for I have seen spiders as big as my hand – made me scream!
Small baby slugs yesterday, washed them away – cant kill babies!
I destroy large crawlers like earwigs, large slugs, beetles and spiders.
My soul is tormented by all of this: hey Mother Nature, why is all this
wildlife in my flat? Back to nature? Screw my head up and show me my pagan
faith, not to mention the mould and damp ruining my decorating and doing
my head in even more—all alive in my flat!


Monday, 16 April 2012

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Saturday, 14 April 2012

natalie series of poems

Natalie. What is it with Dark Haired Gals?

In the Goth club it was fun. Usual early 80s tunes played on the decks. Very early Skeletal Family, The Elementals, Red Lorry Yellow Lorry, Xmal Deutchsland, early All About Eve and local bands in our disco called Sacha's Berlin.
Natalie dances like her spinning Spanish stunt plane she flies at weekends. Flight and music are her passions, in time she'll serve in her country's Air Force. Latino gal pilots aren't new; they fought in Spain back in the late 30s. Nat is following their Latin tradition.
Her band, a Goth band is her heart. She represents all that is good and relates to flight and Goth music. Her path is to fly and create music. Does Nat know that her path of music and flying will be remembered forever, crossing all divides, be it years, political or war. With dark brown hair and grey eyes, Natalie was only Latino in her heart. Her pale white skin wasn't suited to her country's capital city.
She was born her and followed her local/national bands with a passion. Her stunt plane was named Mayo after her Goth band. She danced and lived for the moment, her heart on her sleeve. Little did our lady know, she would be famous for all the wrong reasons. Nat danced on.

Natalie. Basic

Basic flight training was like dancing to The Elementals. Basic, scary and fun. Little did Nat know that in a year she would be at the controls of a deadly multi million dollar warplane in the wrong war, with the wrong enemy. No amount of gothic looks would appease her situation over the coming months. Was it all real? That was a distant question, not for now.
The girl danced and flew with equal passion and ferocity. Her brown hair was all over her face and she danced like a spinning airplane. Eyes shut, she was somewhere else. In her mind, she was in the cockpit of her red coloured training plane. Her flight instructor, Alberto, allowed Natalie to acrobat the little plane. She flew it with wildness that surprised everyone, including her.
Rolling upside down and pulling the control stick to her guts, the red airplane moved like a kid’s toy. Diving straight downwards, picking up speed. Alberto was going to take over before top speed was reached but Nat second guessed him and pulled back into a half loop. Up they went into the blue, a hawk in the heavens. Free. Natalie screamed in joy. Looking over at Alberto, her smile said it all. She was a born pilot.
When the record changed, Nat went to the bar and ordered a glass of red wine. Joining her friends, they chatted on guys, music and Nat’s new air force career. Several of her friends had nice boyfriends or lovers with them. In close embraces, they kissed and made small talk. Nat chatted to Katie, on the fundamentals of aerobatics and flight, demonstrating how to loop and roll with her hand. Her other held her wine. Time passed, music played, wine was drunk and Nat slow danced with Roberto.
Being Catholic and part of a close knit family, the girl was a bit of a rebel. Her mother wanted Natalie to marry and have children. Nat was having none of this; it was music, flying and the air force. Not even men like handsome Roberto swayed the girl for marriage. He was local and conscripted in the army. His passion was films and he had to give up college to serve his country. After a year he would finish his film studies off, if fate allowed. Both were friends and occasional lovers, now they danced in Sacha’s.

Natalie. Politico

There was trouble in The Argentine. A few of Natalie’s friends spoke out against the military junta who ruled the country. The two girls and one boy, all aged eighteen had simply vanished. Natalie was scared. Roberto warned her not to speak out. The same people who forced him into the army, ending his college studies, had apprehended the teens. Their fate was unknown and not good.
Nat was having none of this. She wrote a song, in Spanish, criticizing the government and asking where her friends were. At a live gig in a monastery town outside BA, her band did a gig and she sang that song. Other people were watching her. Her life and new air force career were in grave danger.
Natalie sang her song for her dear friends who were missing. It was no use going to the authorities, they were responsible! The message was clear. Don't speak out against the ruling junta. Was Nat actually on their side? Joining the air force and being a future tool for their use in any war with Chile over the border or even Britain on the Malvinas. Either thought scared her to death.

While on stage Nat briefly toyed with the idea of dropping out of her training. The fate of her friends deeply affected her; she could end up like them. Dead or missing. People in the audience never took their eyes off Nat. She had power here, real power. That was dangerous. A shady man by the bar also watched and waited. Nat cried and sang for her pals and all the other Disappeared. Was it really real? Teenagers going missing because they believed in freedom? The rest of Mayo's set passed in a haze of emotion. Two encores later, it was over.

Nat was drained and got a strong drink at bar. The man in black walked over and nodded at the girl. She looked back blankly.  Her eyes followed his hand as he opened his jacket. She saw a gun. The threat was clear. Don’t step out of line. He finished his beer and left the bar. Natalie was shaking now, frightened that They knew who she was and that she knew what was going on. Her song was proof of that. The barman served her drink and she downed it on one.

Natalie. Mid Course

Nat continued her flight training, moving onto more powerful aircraft, flying on and passing her Basic with ease. Next was a fast prop plane from America. It handled like a Mustang. Her instructor was in the back seat. Natalie was up front, alone fighter style.
Her first flight nearly killed them. The roaring engine stopped dead. Engine failure at six thousand feet brought silence. She took control. Pushing the nose down not to stall, Nat made a decision: to land the plane on the Pampas grass. It would save them all. Her instructor kept an eye on his pupil. They should have jumped when there was height to.
The grey green trainer floated like a bird over the huge plain. Nat dropped the nose and flaps and picked a spot. One time lucky. Earth and plane serenely kissed, a song bird alighting a flower. Nat had done it! They were down in one piece, with no damage. Long Pampas grass cushioned their plane.
Nat's instructor knew she would breeze through flight school. Her next fifteen flights were fun. Dog fights, formation flying and navigation. Then the jet! Did Natalie think engine failure was an attempt on her life? To silence her anti government songs? Or would the loss of a flight instructor be acceptable? A bullet in her pretty head would be far simpler. Or the other way.
They who watched her let her fly. When Natalie passed her fast prop course with flying colours, They allowed her to live. For now. She could be used and manipulated, sent to war where she would no doubt die. They ruled like Nazis. Some had been in a previous life.
Fast jets beckoned and Nat moved up to a cool Italian aircraft. Fast looking and stylishly designed. On her first flight Nat knew she would go to war. A gut feeling told her. Her instructor showed her how to evade a fictitious enemy by rolling, turning and diving, then climbing. Then getting on his tail and killing him. He let her loop and roll.
Thirty more jet flights followed, strenuous in every way. High speed flight was dangerous. Another pilot crashed. Finally Nat passed and got her wings. At the passing out parade, she was told what warplane she would fly. It was the American A-4B Skyhawk. Natalie wanted the fast French Mirage but so did everyone else. Now she was committed, personal thoughts or not.

Natalie. Forsaken

What They did to Nat's three friends was terrible. Abducted by the authorities in the middle of the night, taken against their will and ending their young existence. Hours of torture to get any info, put onto a plane and then...

Filipe was lying in his mother's arms. A caring embrace. No bond was stronger than a mother's and her child. Especially Catholic. Soon it would be time for his bed time story, after his nap...

Suddenly Filipe was jerked violently awake, his drug induced dream history. A huge noise over came him and he was so cold.  No sight. What? He was blindfolded and his limbs were bound. What was happening? Waves of unconscious started to drag him under again.

He was aware of men shouting and someone kicked him in the side. It didn't hurt due to the drugs. Before he passed out Filipe felt hands drag him to the noise and a feeling of flying engulfed the young political protestor, then swirling blackness claimed him. The drugs kicked in before the freezing ocean smashed his frail body.

Many perished this way. They were The Disappeared and were shot or drugged and thrown out of aircraft into the ocean, far from land. Filipe and his two female friends were only three among thousands...

Natalie. Battle Maiden

Flying the Skyhawk was easy. Learning tactics wasn't. Aerial refuelling was hard, as was formation flying. Natalie grew up and lost her girliness. Inside she was a woman. Her view on the government remained. Should she bomb the junta in her plane? Thoughts of that were brushed aside when she was deployed near the Chilean border when tension increased in the long running border dispute.
Flying three armed patrols convinced Chile to stop sabre rattling and withdraw her soldiers. Nat was gaining experience. Public opinion was turning against the government, an ongoing crisis that needed expert handling. War was the answer. Not with Chile but the Malvinas.
An army, armed to the teeth, sailed and was flown out. British resistance was subdued and Argentina had taken the Malvinas. Natalie and her squadron were on standby for action. Britain retaliated and UK ships headed south. Nat trained in anti ship attack. Soon her skills would be needed.
People were behind the war. Not questioning about The Disappeared or how to get rid of the evil junta. The Malvinas were finally ours and a joyous mood overtook many people. In the military, it was different. A real fight would soon erupt. The Brits were coming and Nat was scared. What had she got herself into?
Training continued and there was no time for her band, seeing her friends or little else. Not even secretly discussing how to help make the government fall with her fellow activists. It was a fine line of madness. An air force jet pilot with illegal views and rebellion songs.
She could change the history of her country, Argentina, forever. If she dropped a few bombs on the leaders, it was over. The new war, The Disappeared, the fear. All of it. Could she do it? Would she? Nat knew where the leaders were and would strike on her next armed training mission. Fate stopped her. Events moved quickly and the young warrior woman never had chance.
Nat did hear off Roberto. He was on the Malvinas in the infantry, untrained and with no dog tags. Film studies were still on his mind. It was the last she would ever hear of him. Being the only female pilot in a male squadron, Natalie took no crap. Her practise bombing scores were excellent. Weeks passed and war came.
Finally it was time. Taking off with three other jets to hit British shipping, Nat was facing her baptism of fire. Mid air refuelling gave gas to reach the target. With speed and surprise they attacked. Who would live and who would die?

Natalie. War Woman

The Royal Navy ship filled Natalie's gun sight. She fired her 20mm cannons and pulled up, dropping her bombs. With a sickening jolt they fell free and Nat lowered her nose, weaving her jet, flying away from the large ship. Tracer fire and a single missile raced past her. A faint boom indicated her bombs had gone off. Did she sink the enemy ship?

It was fly for her life. Sea Harriers were inbound. Natalie cursed her government for starting this evil war, for putting her in harms way and for killing her friends. It’s partly my fault, her mind screamed. You wanted to fly, not to fight and kill or be killed. Silly girl! Suddenly a warning was shouted over the radio. More voices and then silence. A Sea Harrier had shot down an A4. Who was hit?

Nat just about made it to the Hercules tanker. She shook with fear. When she landed, her flight suit was drenched in sweat. Two jets were missing. Natalie had damaged a destroyer and killed British personnel. She was physically sick. Her Skyhawk had eight small bullet holes in it and this was only her first mission. The Medical Officer gave her the okay and she attended debriefing.

The next few days were critical. British ships had to be sunk and people killed to defeat the English. It was obvious to all; this would be a bitter fight. Air power had to defeat sea power. Nat flew another mission with mixed results, learning to temper her fear and use her skills and new experience. She saw her cannon fire rake a destroyer but her bombs missed, exploding either side of the ship.

Her third mission was her last over the Malvinas. On the hills above the bay, enemy guns and missiles were getting more lethal each day. Never mind the ships’ weapons and marauding Sea Harriers. Losses were several planes each day. Nat’s time was finally up. She hit a Royal Navy destroyer, blowing a big hole in it with her thousand pound bomb. There were many killed. Natalie never saw the wounded English gunner firing a 20mm cannon when she sped ten metres overhead.

Exploding shells slammed into her A-4 and Natalie almost lost control. Desperately she pulled up, avoiding slamming into the black cold water. By a miracle she never passed out, the pain was something else. A 20mm shell blew her lower left leg off. Blood filled the cockpit. Right there, she wanted to die. No more pain. Not physical nor mental over her Disappeared friends. One simple shove of the controls and the sea would claim her...

Natalie. Mayo

In 2012 on the thirtieth anniversary of the Malvinas war, a muted celebration of remembrance was taking place in Buenos Aires. A band called Mayo were performing a gig and highlighting their new album. With songs of peace and above all else, a song about three missing teens from 1981. The singer was a middle aged woman called Natalie.

She was a very remarkable lady. By all accounts she should have been dead. Her final flight, with near total blood loss in a crippled A-4B Skyhawk had passed into aviation legend. Even her former enemies had recognized her courage in making it back to base after being wounded. How she managed to rendezvous with the Hercules tanker was anyone’s guess. Maybe Nat had a guardian angel and her job wasn’t war but peace.

“I’m Natalie. Most of you know my story. How I love music and flying. How I still follow those two passions and also a third one. That is PEACE. It was only after the fall of the junta that I learnt of the fate of my three friends. How they were abducted by the authorities, tortured, drugged and put on a Navy plane. Then flown an hour out to sea and thrown out, naked, from thirteen thousand feet. All perished.”

A huge crowd stood in silence, listening. Most were young, born after the junta years and Malvinas war and The Disappeared. However, their parents and older people remembered and many of these cried, remembering tens of thousands who were murdered. Most were innocent, a few were guilty. All were killed.

“I could have stopped this by bombing the leadership. Now I know it would have been a suicide mission and they would have been replaced but people could have rose up and brought revolution. I never flew that mission. I was ordered to bomb British ships, this I did. The junta knew of my band Mayo and of my music. I believe they thought I’d be killed. I very nearly was. I lost a leg and have inner scars of those years. This song is for my three murdered friends. They are called Filipe, Anetta and Mahalia. I’d also like to dedicate this to my old enemy, whose men I killed and maimed. And to my own countrymen who were led to their deaths, especially young Roberto who never did make his films. For peace my friends, this song is for you...”

Natalie. An End

In 2012 on the thirtieth anniversary of the war, the dispute is still raging on who should own the Falkland/Malvinas Islands. With oil exploration in the area, both sides need to come together and talk. The Argentine military junta started a war that killed almost a thousand people. This must never happen again. Never mind the tens of thousands of The Disappeared who were murdered for being a threat or having an opinion or different views or for simply being in the wrong place at the wrong time. Natalie is a character of my imagination but in Argentina and in Britain and in every country upon this world, Nat has brothers and sisters who say NO to war and repression. Let Natalie’s voice always be heard and never ever silenced.
For Natalie, warrior woman turned warrior of peace.
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